Today is it. Exactly 2 weeks from 8 o'clock this morning. At that time I will start my quest across the West! (ooo, rhymes!) I cannot even state just how nervous and scared and worried I am about this. But at the same time, I am as at peace as I think I could possibly be. Ultimately everything will go perfectly, according to what God has planned for me. If His plan is for me to get a flat tire in the mountains, so be it. It will happen with a praise in my heart.
Sounds easy? Its not...I have to constantly remind myself to try and let go. Try not to worry, try to not stress. Well so far...its going slightly well. I look at my balance in my account and my heart drops a little and I say "How can I do this?" Then I remember, its in God's hands. God has called me to make this adventure to an unknown area with just an many unknowns along with it. Everything will be perfect. Maybe not perfect in man's eyes, but in mine and Gods.
I have reached the point past unbelievable excitement. I will miss the familiarity of my home here. I will miss my family, my friends, every acquaintance! Sigh...sure I will make more friends in California, but they will not replace the ones I have now.
After all that is said, wow. I am moving to California. I am doing what God wants me to do. There is such an overwhelming peace when you know without a doubt that you are following what God is willing you to do. Its amazing. No words can describe what I am feeling. Those who have found themselves in this position know as well. It brings me closer to my fellow believers for we know that feeling that can't be explained.
Amazing, how God can just make everything okay, better than okay.
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