Life

This past weekend was pretty scary. First, let me explain to you my family tree.

I have the Hadsell side. Lives in Kansas, my dad, sister, nephew, mom, aunt, uncle, grandpa and "Margret". Then I have the Keenan's. The side I married into, all in California. Then I have the Parks. Lived in both Kansas and California. There is a bound between that family that I cannot explain. I have four brothers, William, Justin, Ethan and Jack.

I have never had anything "major" happen within my family, that I remember fully being "major". When I was younger my Dad was diagnosed with Hepatitis C (none curable, but God healed him! a post for another time maybe?). That happened when I was little enough to know that Dad wasn't going to "get better", but no more than that really. Not the anxious...indescribable feeling that happens when you fully know and are old enough to comprehend.


This past Friday, December 9, 2011 I will never forget. Miriam had text me "Please Pray! We're at the hospital with Jack. They're checking for a possible brain tumor". My world spun a little. Tears came to my eyes. Less than 5 minutes later I had pushed it out already. (I do this funny (not humorously so) thing when serious things happen. I can 'shut off' and ignore it. If I'm doing something wrong and I hear God's voice edging me the other way, I turn it off. It's really horrible and I've gotten so much better and leaving it on!). But then Miriam text me what had happened that lead up to the initial text. Reality set in.


I couldn't focus on my work, I didn't want to work. I wanted to do something! I needed to be with Miriam, I needed to be with the other boys, I needed to fix it! But....we all know we can't fix things like this, what a fool I am to think I could even try.

This is most likely the most choppy and none-well-thought-of post ever. But...I don't care. When things like this happen, you realize that there is so much more to life than the stupid things, like forming a well constructed blog post hours in advance! Or making sure that I get home early enough during the day so that I can get as much sleep as possible, or play video games before I go to bed. I am so amazingly (not in the good way) selfish! It's so DISGUSTING and repulsive! I'm scrunching up my nose now, just thinking about it!

UGH!

So, back to Jack, and away from my selfishness...Long story short. They don't know whats wrong. MRI's, CAT scans and blood work has all come back clean. Please be praying that whatever it is, that everyone (including Tim and Miriam, Jack, William, Justin, Ethan, Me, family members, church members, spectators) will see God's glory! We know God is in control. God is completely Sovereign and Powerful! He has it in control and He knows what everyone will be gaining through this experience.

Jack and his MUSCLES and Scorpion tat!

Always so happy! Love this guy!

 

Mom and Son

Jack in the hospital getting ready for the millions of tests. He has such a good attitude about it! If I was him, i would be screaming to get me outta there!

My Prayer for Jack

Lord be with him through this trial. Be with his mom and dad as this is a very hard thing to endure. I know you won't dish out more than they can handle...but it's still scary. Through this, You will be glorified and I hope for those around this family, they will see that and come to know You or grow closer to You.